Bein’ Serious: Since I’ve Been Gone
Soz for the lull in posts, I have been busy as heck these days.
The future is looming. It doesn’t look bleak to me but to outsiders, it may.
I am looking past the past, past the rubbish and telling myself “it can be done”.
Because it has to be done, no more excuses. I cannot stall anymore, it has to be full speed ahead from now on. I am at the age where I should have done so much more at this age but what can I really say?
I have never felt the urge to go out into the world and find myself, like so many people I know.
I have a great knowledge of self and love myself well enough to love others and the life I lead. I do not seek anything that I need to go to the inner slums of the world for.
I don’t doubt travelling for a fun thing to do and a great way to expand your horizons, in fact I would love to go on a world trip. But I always wonder about young people who feel the need to travel straight, out of high school with absolutely nothing to guide them.
Why do you need to find yourself in a Parisian cafe, sipping the same espresso you could have gotten from the local Coffee Club?
How do you know who you are if you don’t even want to live in the country in which you were raised or cannot find the positive in learning about yourself in your own country ?
Why do you think you are unsatisfied with life the way it is?
It has been my experience that the people with the most sheltered lives go overseas and rave like they couldn’t make do without those experiences.
Running with the bulls in Spain is real life? How about running for your life from an abusive father?
Buying a knock off Louis Vuitton handbag in Hong Kong is what your life desired? How about being constantly knocked out by a drug addicted relative?
There are many more people who actually go through some real life shit. And live through it. And they will still always have more real life experience than some 18 year old who went backpacking in Eastern Europe (excluding those in Hostel inspired situations, hehe).
Whoa, soz about the rant.
I am in a place now where it’s real life. Live my life or lose it.
